5 year anniv of Diagnosis Day

I wish I could accurately put into words the feelings that this day brings. It's rare that I get a chance to sit and think about my feelings. Today I have found several moments where I am getting lost in Conner's memory. 5 years ago today I learned that Conner had Tay-Sachs. 5 years ago today my life drastically changed and it will never be the same again.

I am truly emotionally spent and all I can say is that I love and miss Conner as much as ever. I miss hearing him, holding him, and just being with him. I struggle to understand how I couldve lost something so precious. I am broken hearted, and I suppose part of my heart will always be broken. Everyday I carry this pain with me, and though I dont often show it or talk about it, it is there with me every day. Everyday. Days like today, are just a little harder.