A little mini session with Av

Avery is now saying so many new words and a couple days ago started saying her own name!!! She says "name....Avery.... I two" So cute!

5 year anniv of Diagnosis Day

I wish I could accurately put into words the feelings that this day brings. It's rare that I get a chance to sit and think about my feelings. Today I have found several moments where I am getting lost in Conner's memory. 5 years ago today I learned that Conner had Tay-Sachs. 5 years ago today my life drastically changed and it will never be the same again.

I am truly emotionally spent and all I can say is that I love and miss Conner as much as ever. I miss hearing him, holding him, and just being with him. I struggle to understand how I couldve lost something so precious. I am broken hearted, and I suppose part of my heart will always be broken. Everyday I carry this pain with me, and though I dont often show it or talk about it, it is there with me every day. Everyday. Days like today, are just a little harder.

Football

Football is in full swing and Brenden is having a great time, despite the 0-3 record so far :) He has earned the nickname "Tough Hopf", though he likes to call himself the "Brendenator" - lol

Avery is doing well and her speech just keeps getting better! So far the words in her vocabulary are: dog, mama, dada, down, no, stroller, waffle, shoes, towel, shovel, socks, top, diaper, fruit snacks, snack, soda, pee pee, poop, wii, brother, book, yellow, shower, out, up, thank you, football, birthday, tucker, lexi, Brenden, book, night night, blue, purple, stop, barbie, baby, hot dog, birthday, happy, eyes, thumb, hiney, up, hair, bow, bye bye, hello, ...oh goodness, Im sure I leaving some out and she is repeating just about everything :)

Phew....where does the time go?

Avery and I made a quick trip to OC to clear off the deck for the approaching hurricane and had a day and a half of great beach weather and a much more cooperative photo shoot! She is doing well with not thumb sucking and she is exploding in speech. New words every single day! She even said happy birthday daddy or closer to "hap bur day da da" the absolute cutest!

Brenden is now an official second grader and so far.....well the verdict is still out. He is not a fan of all the "work". Football is going great and we are looking forward to the big game Saturday! The Brendenator will be bringing the pain......his words.... not mine - lol