truly remarkable days...

In life there are so few truly remarkable, truly incredible days. For me - tomorrow marks one of those days. In just a few short hours we will celebrate Conner's 4th birthday. Sometimes it seems so surreal - I can picture all these brief moments in my mind - like my boys sharing bunkbeds or running in the sand. I miss him so very badly. Most days I do okay - but today I feel very broken. Broken-hearted, sad - and lost. Giving birth to Conner was literally one of the very best days of my life - since I have done it 3 times - I can confidently say that it was truly remarkable. I thank Conner for so much - for making me who I am - for helping me grow and mature and for giving me the strength to continue without him. I am sad that Brenden only had 22 months with his baby brother and i am sad that Avery will only know him through our memories. For Conner's 4 th birthday we will be making a donation to Soulumination - a charity that is very very special to us. In this post I shared a couple pictures of Conner done by Lynette - these pictures a part of my heart and soul! Happy birthday my amazing baby boy!