So Brenden and I started working on his christmas list last night - So funny! Some of the stuff I had to hint to that Santa may have already picked up for Brenden, but then he throws me a curve ball - and makes me cry. #8 on his list and one he came up with all my himself is a new picture of Brenden and Conner for his room. Im telling you, this little kid is so incredible! He is a spitfire, but so sensitive and sweet. Tonight we were talking about the things we are thankful for - and Brenden tells me that he is thankful for the pictures we have of Conner because they help him to remember. So I immediatly start to tear up and he says "mom - you dont have to cry". Many of you may know that the two year annivarsary of Conner's death is very near (November 26th) So that on top of constantly worrying about Avery has my emotions in a tailspin. I used to worry that Brenden wouldnt remember Conner - but the older he gets the more thoughtful he becomes. So, have no fear, Brenden is going to get a HUGE picture of him and Conner for his bedroom from Santa!
The thing I am most thankful for - it's simple really - my three incredible children. Even though Conner couldnt stay very long, I am SO SO SO thankful for every second I got to spend with him - every smile, cuddle and touch has so much meaning for me. What a valuable lesson he taught me - to never take the simple things for granted. Just putting Brenden to bed every night, or rocking Avery to sleep - are incredibly special moments that I will treasure forever! Thank you to Conner for every thing you have given me - We all love you and miss you so very much
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